how?

Do you know? How does it feel like knowing your mistake and not being able to forgive yourself? How does it feel like wandering around in the cold night? How does it feel like being afraid of falling when you can save yourself? How does it feel like thinking too much in the late night showers? How does it feel like being unable to sleep when you wished you could? How does it feel like being uncertain about everything? How does it feel like being fragile? How does it feel like being immature when everyone in the world thinks maturely? How does it feel like experiencing bad lucks in a day? But one thing I was amazed by myself, is that I am better in accepting bad lucks in this matter and I kept reminding myself that everything is going to be alright?