continue to be sad and sorrow in my heart

herm.... after few month pass.. i still think that we can get over it and start our new life.. life is not that simply that i imagine.. someone u love and someone love u cannot be make just becoz u wan it.. hear the song form yiruma- kiss the rain.. i cant discribe my feeling.. i pretending to be happy everyday.. do silly things and try to make everyone surrounding me happy.. but for my own.. like mrs k said.. i always care ppl more than i care for myself.. that the way i'm.. last week i'm just too angry then stop my bloging.. i think that should'nt happen.. i should go on with my self.. stop thinking for other 1st .. wat more important is my future.. my b'day coming soon 22/10.. for me soon la!! y mrs r wan do this to me.. break my heart on the day... till now i just cant forget the way u said it . break up is nth for me.. but y must be on the day .. with the present u prepared for me.. think of u make my tear out of control... the way u treat me make me scare to hv new gf.. even i had.. i dunt dare to do so much from her.. i'm just scare... i only can wait for someone special.